2005's coming to an end.. marks the end of certain things.. it's the end of sec sch life, it's the end of a fast, bz, yet memorable yr, it's the end of wat shuld be put to an end ages ago.. yepz.. at 12midnite the past will be gone, swept into the endless flow of time, nv to return..
but the coming of 2006 marks the beginning of mani things too.. the beginning of life in jc, the beginning of a much older age, the beginning of new things awaiting us to explore n c.. sho ppl.. as 2005 comes to an end, it's time to reflect n react..

entering 2005 has bought mani new things..mainly mani lessons bahx.. looking back at the events tt happened.. 1st thing was the death of a relative.. yepz.. lesson no1- life is unpredictable.. imagine the 1st thing u hear when u wake up is tt ur uncle's died.. the mani things left behind after 1 person dies is.. i dunno.. burdens after burdens.. the effects of having lost a loved one.. the implications of his death on others.. as much as ppl say death is unavoidable, n the onli way to stop the pain is to accept the fact n move on, it's still.. shocking in a sense..

start of the class 4bn.. hahaz.. mani more ppl i got to noe.. yepz.. the 4bn gang.. spent much more happier times as compared to the past.. coz we put in effort bahx.. to bond.. to make lesson times livier.. to play n study at the same time.. the various things we've done.. the teacher's day performance, graduation performance, the prank, x country cum national day celebration.. yepz..lesson no2- if u r willing to put in effort to noe new ppl, u'll realize how much time u would haf missed enjoying.. strangers r there 4 u to make frens wif..

letting go.. yepz.. lesson no3- holding on to sth which shuld not be held on to will not bring happiness at all.. no matter wat u hold on to.. saw mani things tt shows these.. holding on to the past, hating the present, dreading wat will come in the future, u juzz wanna go back.. seen mani relationships gone sour n over.. seen my grandaunt crying at my uncle's photo even 5 months after the funeral.. letting go is not to 4get bout the past.. letting go is to accept it, thus allowing u to move on, carrying the past wif u into a new life.. the longer u live, the more luggauges u carry.. u r the one doing the walking.. tk control of ur life..

starting anew.. sounds nice..? hahaz.. mani ppl find it scary.. moving on to a new environment.. sth unfamiliar.. not onli tt.. to start anew, after ur past mistks n experiences.. to relieve urself of the burdens of knowledge, be it ur own character faults, ur bad experiences wif others, to 4gif n 4get, to embrace a new person, to breathe in new air.. lesson no4- one muz not be afraid to start a new life.. dun ask urself y shuld u walk a new path, juz ask urself y shuld u not walk a new path.. afterall, u've got nth to lose, juz more to gain..

lesson no5- frens.. hahaz.. ppl.. we all did noe more of the ones around us didn't we.. expected.. afterall.. we haf spent more time together now.. 4bn.. 2rp.. cchm.. frm strangers to frens, frm frens to close pals.. frm close pals to lifelong buddies.. it's all wif the process of time.. after being more accepting of frens.. found more time spent on doing diff things.. it's no longer spending 24/7 wif onli 1 person, it's 24/7 wif mani ppl, everiday bringing forth a diff person.. walking down their paths of daily life, letting them walk down ur path wif u.. learning frm their mistks, sharing urs wif them.. waiting 4 ur gd frens to come, letting time test ur frenship, letting time tell u who r urs truly.. knowing more ppl ain't a lost at all.. in fact, it's a gain..

lesson no6- family.. yeahz.. the 1st grp of ppl u noe at the veri 1st awakening of birth.. ur parents, ur siblings, ur uncles n aunts, ur nephews n nice.. the whole works..we tend to put frens b4 families, making us neglect the ones related to us by blood.. when was the last time u listened to ur best fren's problems..? when was the last time u listen to ur siblings' problems..? when was the last time u listen to ur parents' problems..? when was the last time u truly shared ur fren's burdens..? when was the last time u truly shared ur parents' burdens..? how mani of u had spent more quality time wif them, to noe them better, to noe the ppl who gave birth n raised u.. how mani of u haf given them the luv u would haf shown ur stead..? families ain't perfect.. they haf their own problems too.. mani mani problems.. mani mani joys.. 2005 haf brought me to know more about them.. the ones tt haf always been there.. n the ones tt haf always been missing in my life..

reality is lesson no7.. yepz.. would u consider tis word sensible or cruel.. afterall, who doesn't like a little dream come true in our lives, who doesn't wan a fairytale ending, who doesn't wan to be like the heroes in comics.. but afterall, everithing around u will knock u back to earth.. the oh-so-true problems adults face everiday r starting to creep up on us.. yepz.. we r growing, soon gonna be past mid-teenage, soon gonna get out of our childhood days n into the adults world.. financial problems, family problems, employment problems, taxes n bills n the whole works will soon be our problems too.. can't help but learn to start dealing wif it.. those who haven felt the impact of such problems yetx, well, enjoy all u can now..

here comes lesson no8- a person is nv happi except at the price of some ignorance n acceptance.. yepz..if u can't feel contented, u'll nv be happi.. if u noe how ugly the world out there is, den u'll nv be happi.. hahaz.. it's either ignore it, or accept it, den u can live smiling everiday..

hahaz.. currently kinda drained by tis post.. couldn't noe wat else to add on.. if it hits me i'll post them up.. hahaz..