boredom..
boring..
sianz1/2..
life's fricking boring..
hahaz.. how often do u hear tis..? lo.. life's not boring at all.. but y do we say tt.. we sae tt when we're bored..? but life's not boring.. wif the mani happenings around us, big n small, constantly changing world, how can life be boring..? wat's the difference between boredom n peace aniway..? it's juzz wat we ask out of life.. life's always peaceful.. the world's naturally peaceful.. look at the natural environment.. if u haf spent a day juzz submerging into mother nature, u'll feel peace n tranquility.. not boredom.. boredom onli comes when u ask 4 spices in life, n u dun recieve it.. it still comes out of u asking 4 happiness, asking 4 sadness, asking 4 pain, asking 4 pleasure.. if, 4 tt instant, u dun ask 4 ani emotions out of urself, wat do u feel..?
tk a situation 4 example.. the exams.. it's a major exam.. the prelims.. u sit down on ur seat, n sees the faced-down paper infront of u.. no doubt u'll feel nervous.. u r nervous.. who wouldn't be..if u were to focus on ur nervousness.. it intensifies.. u start breaking out in cold sweat.. sure.. ppl will normally juzz bear wif the nervousness n do the paper, afterall, once u start doing it, ur nervousness will gradually fade away wun it..? the more u indulge, u get bz, u'll 4get bout it, wun u..? tis is person A.. n den u haf tis boy.. he sees the paper infront of it.. he feels nervous, like ani other person.. but den, he closes his eyes.. he clears all his thoughts n emotions n juzz breathe.. nth in his mind, until his heartbeat returns to normal.. blank of all tot.. when he opens his eyes again, the nervous will be subsided.. less intensified.. he den proceeds to tackle the paper.. tis is person B.. r u A or r u B..? tis is not the onli situation.. a big sports match.. basketball, 4 example.. u've got a big match.. nervous..? fear..? wat happens if i lose..? wat happens if i fumble..? these r the tots running thru in ur mind.. r u going to be person A, or person B..? u've got an important meeting wif tis big client.. if u pull off tis job successfully, u earn the big bucks.. if u fail, there goes ur life.. nervous..? scared..? who wun..? person A or person B..?
these r big examples, but if u move down to a smaller, everiday scale, isn't tis juzz life..? emotions r spices, variaties r spices, spices r the seasoning to life.. some ppl live wif it, letting it tk u along the ride.. den everithing happens.. u get the adrenaline rush.. u fly up high wif euphoria.. u sink right down wif depression.. u drive urself crazy wif boredom.. u get overcome by greed.. u become murderous wif anger.. u become spiteful wif jealousy.. u feel warmth frm love.. spinning around n around wif all of them.. exhaustion will always be waiting 4 u at the last stop.. 'i'm tired of life, i'm sick of my fren, i hate u 4 tking away my happiness..' emotionally drained.. y drained..? coz emotions changes all the time.. none of them last 4eva.. we all wan eva lasting happiness, eva lasting luv.. but these r all emotions.. if these r all capable of eva lasting, den sadness, desire, rage r all capable of eva lasting too.. life's not all gd n no bad.. but the truth is, non of them r lasting.. the more u indulge in them, the more u'll notice their change.. how mani of u can stand losing all u haf overnight.. how mani of u can bear a luv one leaving u or dying.. how mani of u can bear ur dreams being shattered.. y do ppl work hard 4 their dreams.. it isn't accomplishing tt thing which u wan.. it's the sense of accomplishment u r seeking.. wat happens when it's all gone..? wat happens when some1 u luv sho much die one day.. we dun live 4 the things we do, we live 4 the emotions we feel.. it's ur arguement tt emotions makes life wat it is.. den go indulge in all the emotions u feel.. tt pain.. tt joy.. tt loneliness.. tt fear.. tt despise.. all n all n all tt u feel everiday, everi moment, everitime.. den ask urself.. wat r all these emotions doing to u..? making u a greedy person.. making u sarcastic.. making u hate everi1.. making u go on endless searching 4 it.. making u breakdown n cry.. making u happi juzz 4 tt moment.. making u do things tt r wrong.. making u regret the sins u've committed.. making u who u r.. den again.. is it rilly u..? is it rilly the u u wan urself to be..?